December 28th, 2012: Thoughts, College, and 2012

THOUGHTS, COLLEGE, AND 2012

Hello, everyone!  Oh, how I have missed my beautiful blog!  It doesn't feel like it was that long ago since my last blog, but then I actually look to see what the date was of my last blog and it actually was a long while ago!  Anyways, so I'm sure you're all wondering about college for me, especially fashion wise.  Well, I've been very diligent in my looks, it's just been difficult, to say the least.  For one, I no longer have Doris there to keep me company and help me out with which outfits would actually look good or not.  Second, my closet has been split.  I have some clothes at home, some at college, and some that I've been completely clueless as where they are.  Thirdly, my perspective on things are changing which is making it difficult for me to dress in the morning.  It's amazing what the mind can do.  I've been experiencing so many changes; to be honest, I think this year has been the biggest year for changes for me.  

First, was just college in general.  Getting in the groove of college has been a strain somewhat to me.  I'm a go-with-the-flow kind of gal, but I have to be somewhat on top of my gun in college.  I've had to make a lot of adjustments for my plans for the future as well due to my time at college.  I've dropped my Education major, and that's been the toughest decision yet for me.  I still want to be an English teacher deep down in my heart, but not in that way.  I want to be teach children literature not in a classroom setting.  I want to experience literature in the moments that are special, for example, when my baby cousin is going through a tough time, I read to him from my favorite books to help him out.  We've read "Moby Dick" together and I plan to read to him all of my favorite children classics such as "Sideways Stories From Wayside School" and "Poppy."  So, that left me with the question of "what are you going to do now, then, Makayla?  You have to make a living somehow."  Uh...well.....that was difficult, still looking into it, somewhat.  I've known since I was kid that I was meant to be on stage, whether it was as a Dolly Parton impersonator or just a comedian, I had to hear the audience and indulge myself.  So, that desire is still deep down inside of me, and perhaps one day, I'll be able to fulfill it.

Second was my issue with fashion.  When I went to college, I was so unsure of what to wear.  What do college kids wear?  I had heard they only wore pajama pants.  Well, I was never going to stoop that low ever.  So, I was completely in the blank of what to do in the fashion department.  Well, when I arrived on campus, I began to notice a common denominator at my school: everyone seemed to be chill with their clothing.  So, subconsciously  I began to suppress my clothing choices, which then began to suppress who I truly am inside.  It's amazing what my clothes can do for me; they changed who I was inside.  I wasn't myself at all, but after several discussions with my friends from back home (they go to different colleges), they said they felt the same way.

So, my advice for when college turns around the corner, don't expect to be the same.  Every thing will change, and it's not always a bad change, it's just a change.  I know I just have to adjust to this new Makayla and what she likes and dislikes all over again.  It's like going through elementary school again with the questions like "What's your favorite color?,"  "What's your favorite food?"  I have to ask myself these questions, and then will my closet begin to reflect the new Makayla.  I hope to keep blogging; I have discovered I can make time for it at college, so I will try my best.

"Don’t be into trends. Don’t make fashion own you, but you decide what you are, what you want to express by the way you dress and the way you live."

— Gianni Versace